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Yesterday my work partner and I talked about food, health, acupuncture, exercise, school, and family. Today we talked about God. Both days were pretty great. I think we’re bonding. Boundaries were set, reiterated, and respected overall. Set: “I won’t hate you, we can agree to disagree. We can definitely listen to each other with theContinue reading “They Fear Us Just The Same”

This morning, we stood between the darkness and the night. Above us, the lightening made a lantern with the clouds. Across the sky, the bright, full moon dunked yellow. As a friend crossed the circle to come and say, “Hello. Did you know, a yellow moon means go with the flow?” I said, “No, butContinue reading “Yellow Moon”

“Gloriously tall and loyal food giver, why oh why do you smell like a buffet when you come home to feed me everyday?” – Simba “Please stop licking me. Thank you. Well Simba, the melange of scents that I carry home begins from the sun. I love it, I am a lizard. Northern winters, moreContinue reading “Smell Like Shit”

So many feelings did not amass to words this month. Been BACK TWEK since early July. It has come with noted changes in time and routine. So many things went from every day activities to unchecked items in the planner. I do miss running, yoga, playing piano, writing, talking with friends, fishing, endless time atContinue reading “Back Twerk”

I am trying to enjoy the moments and not let the fear and anxiety of what could happen in the future fuck up what is happening now. Right now, I am feeling fine. So feeling the light is easy. Requires no effort, comes and goes like breathing. I am still scarred. Right now, enjoying theContinue reading “Summer Love”

How many times have you died today? Does it even hurt anymore? Are you addicted to the pain yet? Choosing the devil you know again and again, do you remember who you were before you started letting fear rule your free will? Does the presence of true pleasure and peace make you go mad? IContinue reading “A Coward Dies 1,000 Deaths, A Soldier Dies But Once”

We walked. The things we saw flew forward. A pretty pretty day. The best kind of board. In between, tracks loop and take us right back. Then I want to go home. Memories plague peace. So we fish, smell the flowers, manifest with all our powers. Cause it never, goes, away. It’s all good, ifContinue reading “Walk AL-ONE”

Fishing is so much fun. You sit. And wait. As food. Jumps from. The water. Into. Your. Lap. It blows my mind. If only everything could be that easy. Everything probably is that easy. Want it. Think about it. Then sit. And wait. As whatever the fuck you want. Jumps from. The water. Into. Your.Continue reading “Fishing, Flooding, and F words”

Look in these bright brown eyes, That we are gods is no disguise. Say what you want, Don’t compromise, Freedom is ours, I’m taking mine, Peace ✌🏿 Many things that people seem to comprehend as a state of being, I can only understand as actions. Love, freedom, and peace are just some examples. People sayContinue reading “LOOK and you will SEE”

We were supposed to be staying 6 feet away but we really wanted to touch each other. His back was sore so I put him between my legs and started rubbing his shoulders. I heard somebody calling a child behind me. Familiar voice and a familiar name. As soon as I realized who it was,Continue reading “Morning Would”