Forgive them AL for they know not what they do

An old one from a few years ago that I found and took down when I started loving on Nicole again last year. Also, I don’t actually wanna kill Jamice’s other kid, quite the opposite, she’s very cool and I crave her love too and it scares me so I avoid it. Obviously, I was just so hurt, sad, and jealous. It’s interesting to see how I let the same people hurt me in the same ways…even if I have had no communication with them since I wrote this. How can someone kill you every morning if they don’t know you, don’t think about you, and can’t touch you? Cycles. Next on the hit list. Thank you Al, for keeping Terri off the list. So much love and healing between then and now, so much more between now and then.

Fuck you Jamice,
I would kill your kids but you wouldn’t care,
Fuck you Julia, I would never kill yours, you were never there.
Plus I love them more than you ever could or ever care,
You can’t love, there’s a hole in your chest missing where,
The understanding of unconditional and empathy live and share.

Fuck you Nicole,
You came and went without an explanation,
Plaid me as your dirty secret,
While keeping your reputation,
It’s clear that you would rather stay,
In a relationship where you can play
The victim and the martyr tell me,
How many times have you complained today?

Fuck you Terri,
You ain’t the worst (cause you weak),
But your type feels like a curse,
Please Al don’t leave me, she said she as grabbed my hands and pulled them around her neck in the middle of the Cheesecake Factory.
Please Al, just hurt me.
Please Al, I need you.

Now I am the demon?
Because I called you back.
Now I am the demon because I didn’t stop you from cheating.
Now I am the demon because I yelled at you on the phone.
Now I am the demon because that is the way I came out of your vagina.

No bitches, I am a demon because I love each of you more than you love yourselves.
It confuses and scares you into perverting my actions into something that makes sense to you in your world, even when it is delusional.
Which is oddly logical, considering that your actions are based in fear.

If you want to scape goat, read the Bible.
If you want a demon, talk to me.

Please, my most benevolent ancestors, Rid these leeches from my ponds.
Cleanse these waters to smell rose sweet,
So a harem of baaaaad bitches I soon will meet.