Morning Dragon Breath

It’s all about love. One reason why I haven’t posted much of what I’ve written this year is because everything I’ve written this year has been about love. I’m not used to posting lovey dovey ouey gouey romantic heart things. I’m about to get used to it, because the love we have, My Lover-Goddess-Best Friend has lifechanging love that inspires me more times that I can count in a day. I love waking up with her. These were one morning’s thoughts.

I used to wake up mad,

Like really crazy,

I’d be fighting all across dreamland,

Then like a baby,

I would wake up crying scared confused,

Start thinking maybe,

That this day is dead and my abuse,

In the dream’s a sign,

That the dagger in the heart

Of the dragon today is mine.

I wake up with the dagger

Pinning me down to the bed.

I’m freaking out because this pain

Is more than in my head.

How am I supposed to walk and work

And smile and talk to people,

When I’m drenched in blood and dying,

Everyone will surely see through,

The mask? I didn’t even get the one that covers eyes,

There is no more energy left in this vessel

For those lies.

No energy and yet the day is young

And I am free.

Empowering thoughts,

Or more reasons to feel guilty?

Regardless, I couldn’t get out of bed

Even if I wanted to.

The daggers got me pinned down

So it hurts to much to move.

Hurts to much to move.

Need to self sooth.

Breathe and build up power

Conquer fear and release my dragon.

Pull at the dagger,

Let the blood fly and,

When they ask what happens.

Tell them,

Cry,

Be scarred,

Maybe die.

And then I’ll be

Out of

Bed.

Covered in scars you

See my

Head.

Healed up like I’ve just been to war,

You fingers gently touch my scars,

Our light grows into orbs,

We shoot up and travel through the stars.

“I see you and all the work you have done,”

She says in front of the mirror,

My scales shine and shake with joy

Every time I see her.

I wake up feeling powerful,

With her breathing on my chest,

Thankful for the parts of us

That got stronger through the tests.

Thankful for the parts of us,

That teach us how we’re ALways blessed.